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Sunday, December 22, 2013

11th Birthday Reflections

The ground was covered in a layer of snow, one day eleven years ago.  It was not your average day.  It like NEVER snows in Baku, Azerbaijan! Something else about that day made a mark on history.  It was the day she was born.  What I would have given to be there, to see this miracle, to know the begining of her story.  I have imagined it hundreds of times.  These are details that I may never know this side of heaven. I choose, therefore to focus on the things that I do know...



        *She has been wanted every day of her life....God placed her in my heart before she was ever born.

        *There has never been a day she has been out of His care, though I was not priviledged to
be her mother until she was nearly 10 months old.

       *This child was fearfully and wonderfully made.  To know her is to know the truth of this claim.

       *God uses her mightily in my life. When I look at her, I see God's hand of faithfulness.

       *She has a HUGE HEART for others in need, the likes of which is rarely seen in a child her age.

       *I did not approve of this birthday, but it seems I have no choice, but to watch her turn another year older; to celebrate what heaven celebrates; to give thanks to the Lord for making it so.

       *To remember with an unspeakable love and gratitude, the birthmother who gave so unselfishly to choose life for the child we both call daughter.  May I never take her for granted.   I pray that God meets her at the very point of her need, out of His limitless resources, to bring His PEACE & LOVE to her heart.

       *To wish my baby girl a very HAPPY, HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!


Disclaimer: If the hamster you got today for your birthday gets loose in this house, I am not to be held responsible for my actions. 


Monday, December 9, 2013

Ten Year Gotcha!!!

Every October ushers in a change of season with crisp fall air, beautifully changing leaves and pumpkin-flavored everything. But around our house October means Gotcha Day. And this October celebrates a milestone 10 Years!!!  It was ten years ago that God forever changed our hearts and lives with this child. 
It was ten years ago that God forever changed her life as well.  He changed her name, her world, her future and her story.  No longer was she an orphan, she became our daughter.  She was a tiny wisp of a babe, (15LBS fully clothed in winter attire) when we walked away from the Baby House that day. Not quite 10 months old, she had already been down a hard road. But God!  He is quite the Creator, ya know.  To have crafted this sweet thing with all her intricacies still blows my mind. I have always prayed that God would use her story to be the seed that grows her faith. I can't give her my faith, but I can recite God's faithfulness over her life, time and time again.  Every year she grows and matures before my eyes. God has birthed in her a love and compassion for others...for orphans.  Oh My Heart!  To be so young and determined to change her world is such an answer to this mama's prayers. I sit back in awestruck wonder and watch her heart look more and more like the heart of God.
This past summer she was moved by a sermon preached at church about adoption and the plight of the orphan. She came home resolved to make a difference. She boldly told me, "Mom, I want to raise money for orphans. I will start The Orphan Company and I will sell brownies and bracelets and raise $100 for orphans!" She had it all figured out and she was on mission!  I supported her 100% in her mission. I watched as she started beading bracelets for friends. I taught her how to follow directions, measure and bake brownies.  After three days of baking and selling brownies, this girl can crack and egg like a boss!  Oh, and then some mothers requested bracelets. We decided to design a bracelet for those with more grown-up tastes.  It was quickly dubbed "the Orphan bracelet" with it's unique O-ring design that reminds us to pray for orphans. Fast forward 3 months, and prepare to be amazed at the faithfulness of our Lord.  By this time, she had chosen 2 adoptive families to receive the Orphan Company money.  They were each adopting 2 orphans. So money raised will assist in bringing home four more orphans. My prayer is that she sees the Sovereign hand of the Lord in this experience. She gave her little & God made it much.  Much more than her goal of $100.  He blew us away!  Don't you love it when God leaves you awestruck?  On the weekend of her 10yr Gotcha Day celebration, she presented these families with their gifts. It was a lovely moment. One that we will never forget. She has seen the first 2 of those orphans lose their orphan status and come home to their loving families. Hopefully she will meet them soon.  We are still trusting God for the other two precious orphans to come home.  God is faithful & good.  God is in the details and the timing.  I can't think of a better way to celebrate our 10yr Gotcha Day than that!  I love what God is doing in the heart of my little world changer.  May He continue to work in my heart as well. 
 

Sunday, July 7, 2013

A Special Moment in Time

It was ten years ago, this day.  We were just minding our our business, when totally unexpected.....wait, who am I kidding? It was the moment this mama had been waiting for, week after week after week. Sue, our dear program director, called with the best news I could think of. She called to tell us about the answer to our prayers, the little girl our hearts had waited to know. This thing called adoption is not for the weak of heart.  When you sign on, you sign your future over to the sovereign hand of the Lord. But, really, who better to handle the details of life than the One who Created it all?  I am confident that My Father ordains the stops, the starts & the stalls in my life.  I can't fathom all the details that had to come together in order for that little girl to find her way into our hearts, into our family.  And He does that for each of us, for the least of these, because that brings Him delight.  He sees the orphan, and He promises that He will not leave them. He will come to them, through the hearts of you and I.  We stepped out in obedience, jumping through hoops on city, county, state, national & international levels.  We waded through piles of paperwork and prayed and prayed and prayed.  We learned quickly that we had zero control over the timetable. But God!  He was working all things together for good. 


And when it was time, when she was ready & when we were ready, the phone rang.  I grabbed a clipboard & pen, and began feverishly writing down every detail, while blinking through the tears.  We would wait another 20 hours before our eyes would behold this adorable child. 
 

God surprised us with so many of the details of her description, and challenged us with others.  None of it caught God by surprise.  He was in every detail.  The waiting room was necessary for me.  God was growing my faith as each silent week passed.  Trust Him in the waiting room.  He sees. He knows.  He spent time in the details.  Oh, the glory that is seen in the details.  I will never get over Him, or His love for us, or for this child.    

Monday, May 27, 2013

A Most Memorable Memorial Day....Both Then & Now

It was Memorial Day in the year 1995.  My little man, two at the time, managed to make it memorable.  When I got him up from his nap, he explained to me, that his throat hurt because he "fwallowed the needle from the other hole."  I begin feverishly looking for pins or needles in his bed linens...to no avail. He adamantly repeats, "I fwallowed the needle!"  So I tried a new approach & asked him to show me the other hole. He points to an empty screw hole from his bed rail. He had apparently backed out a short screw & accidentally swallowed it. Oh Great! Now what?  Off to the ER we went.  Knowing the, shall we say 'dislike for doctors' expressed by my boy, I began to prep him for the experience as if it were a grand adventure to the hospital.  I prompted him to greet everyone who came up to him with a cheerful "Hello! I fwallowed a screw!"  He did wonderfully! He told everyone...including a police officer in the hall. The officer looked at me, & having no defense, I could only smile sheepishly & shrug. What is a mother to do?
After x-rays, we found that his screw had passed through his stomach without damage and entered his intestines. We now had to wait for him to pass the screw for as many days as it may take. We were given instructions on what red flags to watch for & hopefully that would be the end of it.  So for a full week, we examined each & every dirty diaper for this missing screw...a full, long, memorable week!  Finally it appeared! We breathed a sigh of relief, while holding our noses, & life went on.

So, fast forward about 17 years to another memorable Memorial Day.  For this year, marks the first year I can say that I am a Marine Mom. I am mother to one of our nation's finest.  So I have had a brand new vantage point from which to view this special day.  I am both proud & humbled by this new role. I am much more grateful for the sacrifices made by our nation's heroes, because I have a personal investment this time. My boy has chosen to walk this road, to serve our country, and protect her freedoms, no matter the cost.  I fully support him & others like him with my whole heart.
From the time he was born  till this day and on for years to come, God has been growing my boy, preparing him for a great work, equipping him for a special task.  I have no idea what that day will look like, or what that task might be. But I trust God to continue to grow my boy for His kingdom's purpose.  I am so grateful that I could pick up the phone today & hear his voice. Many cannot.  I will be his biggest cheerleader and encourager.  Just as I prepped him for his hospital adventure, I encourage him now, to seek & serve the Lord with all his heart, mind & strength.  I want him to serve people, meet needs & make a difference as a world changer.  So I guess you could say that not so much has changed. Well, one thing HAS changed.  My boy no longer snacks on screws.  These days he munches on bullets!

Sunday, May 12, 2013

Mother's Day....The Call

Well, it finally happened. For the first time in all my years of motherhood, I was not with all of my dear children for this sacred holiday called Mother's Day. For the past 21 Mother's Days I have been privileged to see each of my beloved children face to face on this most auspicious of days. But this year, things were different. Something was missing, as I knew it would be...not bad, but different. This morning I beheld three of my sweet children, received all sorts of goodies & treats. I was given a book of poems by my youngest, even a hand-made cup & saucer from my eldest. Lunch was wonderful, cause I didn't have to cook or clean it.  All now treasures in my sentimental heart. But what made it complete was the call. That much anticipated moment when my cell phone lit up, a hint that a call was coming through.  I dropped everything & stared into that screen, waiting...finally the ring sounded. Did I let it ring twice? I don't think so! On the other end of that call was my Marine, my boy, wishing me a Happy Mother's Day. This time he calls from training school. Next year...who knows where he will be? Now I understand & never will I take for granted that I always have my kids gathered under my roof for Mother's Day. I will long to hear from them, all the same. My heart goes out to all those whose children are unable to call, or, God forbid, unwilling. I've shed a tear today for all the birth mothers out there who may not receive a call. As an adoptive mother, I get that. I grieve for those moms who have lost their beloved children too soon.  Never again will I take it for granted.  I'll be reminding all my friends to call their mothers. Because that's the way it should be. You just never know when life will change & you can't go back. By the way, have you called your mama?

Friday, January 4, 2013

Tribute to Thing #2

He rocked my world over nineteen years ago, when he arrived on the scene. Strong-will and determination were evident from the very start. I knew I had my work cut out for me from the second day I knew him, and he was only 2 days old. James Dobson would have been proud to know he’d be selling another copy of The Strong-willed Child. I had to learn to stay one step ahead of him, for he has always been very smart. When he was eight months old, I stood him up to see how long he could balance. The little stinker walked to me! He never looked back. As a child, he never lacked for anything to do. Never once did this child whine that he was bored. To be honest, many of the things he found to occupy his time with were certainly unlawful for a child his size. I am sure that many a boy has crafted his own bow and arrow set out of nature & found items. But my boy took it to another level when he attached nails to the ends of his arrows. He has always been self-reliant and persistent. Like the day that we were teaching his big sister how to ride her bike without training wheels. Her father and I would take turns running up & down the driveway trying to keep her from running into pine trees, while the other of us was working the video camera. Meanwhile, our three year old decided that anything she could do, he could do better. He helped himself to a set of wrenches. He settled into the task to rid himself of his training wheels. He had already removed the first and was nearly done with the last one, when we realized what he was doing. Knowing how determined he was, we knew the best way to persuade him, was to let him learn the hard way…crash & burn speaks louder than a parent at times. Poor little thing couldn’t even reach the ground to start or stop himself. He pulled his bike over to the little driveway wall and mounted his bike. To our utter amazement he rode, without our help! The only problem was stopping. His only recourse was to fall, since he couldn’t reach the ground. After a few crashing stops, he conceded to allowing us to put the training wheels back on, just until he could reach the ground. He always found the line with his authority, and would often shove his big toe over to see what he could get away with. He was a great soccer player, although perhaps a bit too aggressive & reckless. He received his share of yellow cards for dangerous play. It was his last career game, before aging out of the system, when it finally happened…the dreaded red card! He was out for the rest of the game, the championship game. Luckily his team did win. But my boy was crushed that he was carded for rough play. And weapons? He could make a weapon out of most anything. Popsicle sticks, clothes pins, you name it, he could use it. Loves paint ball, airsoft, hunting, etc. He would buy an airsoft rifle and paint it to look like the real thing. He would make modifications to tweak it & make it the best his money could afford. It pains me to tell this story, but there was one time when the police were involved. I still get nauseous recalling this memory. One day, years ago, his younger brother fetched me with a casual “Mom, there are some people at the door who need to see you.” I scurried down only to find a swat team (my motherly exaggeration) and my teenaged son on the front porch. Officers with shields are holding my terrified son, who is handcuffed, by the way. They asked to see his rifle. An officer followed me up to his room where I found his airsoft gun and gave it to the officer. I told him it was a fake gun. But he took it. Apparently the mail carrier, bless her heart, had ”seen a shooter in our second floor window” and called the police. He had just modified his gun & had been sighting it in. Apparently a plastic BB ricochet off the tree he was aiming at & she thought someone was shooting at her. After a few moments, one of the officers clued me in that there was no real danger, or issue. They wanted to teach my boy a lesson. I agreed. They impounded his gun for thirty long days and he issued an apology for scaring the poor mail lady. While impounded, that gun surprised many an officer that thought it was a real assault rifle. Lesson learned, again the hard way. These are just a few of the highlights of the boyhood of my young man. I treasure each one of the many memories. I really could have written a book with this child. He was truly wonderfully and fearfully made. God chose to design this boy with a strong-willed determination and a spirit that never gives up. He birthed in him a strong patriotic spirit and a need to right injustice. For as long as I can remember, He has wanted to serve in the military. He leaves this weekend to follow the next step in that dream. He leaves for boot camp in the USMC. It will be the hardest job he’ll ever love. People ask how I feel about his choice. I can’t say it is at all a surprise, or that I didn’t see it coming. I have pictured him thusly so many times. With his camo PJ’s and a military-style buzz cut, asleep under his camouflage blanket, somehow I knew. In the quiet moments I knew God was preparing my boy for this day. I have had much practice praying for this child, so I shall feel right at home interceding for my young man. As he steps into this journey, my heart and my prayers go with him. He can do this! He will make a fine Marine. I pray that he holds to the faith that has carried him this far. I pray that the God that saw fit for him to grow into manhood, would be very close to his heart. I am thankful that so many of his friends and mentors are godly Christians, who will be praying for him.
So, yes, he receives my blessing to go and be all he can be, to serve his country proudly, to represent his family with honor & integrity, & most of all represent Christ to a world that needs Him desperately. I am proud of his decision to become one of the few, the proud, the Marines.